As the tears roll down my face …The words hurting my already hurting heart …
The words spoken in an interview from a small group of bereaved children sit heavy on my heart, but with a twist of admiration, compassion and empathy ….
The words from a beautiful song
Jealous of the Angels ….
Sung by the little ones ….
They gather and sing to draw strength from their similar experiences …I’ve heard it sung by Katherine Jenkins on Utube as well …she certainly sounds like an angel …her voice a gift …
The lost years for my mum is what I morn the most … those years snatched away in the grips of death …..
Our landscape changed so quickly… my sister and I abandoned over night never to feel our mothers embrace again …
Everything was changing in front of our eyes …we were kids who had no control ,yet had to take control …..
I was the only kid in the junior school that this had happened too …How was any other child supposed to understand what losing a mum felt like ??….
Still lonely at the age of 44 ….My mum missing from my life for too many years ….
I feel very alone at times ….and a twinge of jealousy as I see people with a relationship I can only dream about …..
Those time when you want to chat about stuff ….share an idea… ask advise ….have a hug ….share some silence….
so am i jealous of the angels?? …
well of course I am ….she’s up there with them and not here with us ….
The gift of time together is priceless….
the gift of life is priceless ……
we never know when our time to part will come …..
Tell those you love that you love them very much …but mean it unconditionally….
leave your wonderful mark on their heart and a head and soul full of wonderful memories to draw upon when their days seem bleak …….because those bleak lonely days come to us all …we just don’t know when …..
love and light kirsten xxxx
I have just started a blog, influenced by my mothers passing 2 years ago, and everything that comes with it! This is a really lovely blog. I miss my mum every single day. It doesn’t seem to have got any easier just yet.
Keep writing 🙂 Abs x
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bless you ….keep her close to your heart and speak of her often ….stay strong xxxx
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